Loving him is all she knows...

     A serene calmness lies over the trees. A silence that spreads all around, with that distant chirping of the birds. The twinkling of the moon, in the water below, reflects bright in her eyes. The occasional splattering of water, the tip tap footsteps of the resting cows, brings about that unique feeling of oneness. Here she is one with the nature, away from the maddening rush, peaceful in her mother's lap. The wind smoothly caresses her as she rests her feet in the depth of the water below. As the aroma of the wet soil eases her sense, her soul finds solace. Here she knows that she can forget the searing pain throbbing through her veins, as the beauty if nature fills the hole in her heart. Her smile isn't fake, her tears don't flow and her pulse sing a song of beauty when she is here. This is her escape, her haven, the one place she feels safe at.

        But no matter how divine her hideout is, there are still snakes lurking in the deepest corners of the pond, thriving on her inner demons. She knows the pain will be waiting in her path, its hood spread, patiently awaiting its moment to strike. She knows this because she is never truly safe. Sometimes this very wind that is so kind to her, rings in its breezes the whisper of his voice. Sometimes the soothing moonlight brings in its rays the silkiness of his touch. Sometimes the slowly dancing water shows his face in its steely folds. She can escape the physical presence of his world, but she can't hide from the feelings that dwell in her heart, feeding on her life energy. He resides in the core of her soul, wrapped in the arms of love. 

        Yes she loves him, its a reality she can't run away from. And yet she knows he can never be hers. He is the forbidden fruit whose lure sends her through hell. He wasn't meant to be hers. But her heart doesn't know that and her soul doesn't accept that. They pine after him, pushing her into a world of dark clouds. She knows he broke her heart, she knows loving him more will slowly break her spirit. But she just can't stop those feelings overwhelming her every thought, her every instinct. She will love him even if it destroys her. she will love him till that gaping hole in her heart consumes her existence. She will love him beyond Haedes' berth. Because loving him is all she knows.